In my first blog on this subject I was interested to see that it wasn’t just me that disliked the label given to them, that are now widely used in today’s mental health service and their purpose.
Everyone knows that the numbers accessing mental health services up and down the country is rising.
Those two are defiantly best friends, where one is the other won’t be far behind.
Anyone who is given a diagnosis of a personality disorder isn’t generally going to be chuffed it’s not like getting a box of lush chocolates.
it’s not nice for someone to turn round and say “well I think you have a personality disorder”, to me as I take everything to heart I thought that they were telling me that because they gave it a label, all my dad said all my life was true.
I was wrong, damaged and broken
And because let’s face it you are your personality sort of and its that special little thing that make you unique.
I was really upset at firs,t in my mind I could see this huge red label like Paddington’s, but it flashed clearly so people would realise I was damaged goods, best not rattle the cage.
However, I am on a journey at the moment to try and discover as much about personality disorders and also how the NHS mental health system works.
I went to a conference about mental health in my local area.
I should possibly mention at this point I am at present on a 50/50 placebo medicine trial to see the effectiveness of a mood stabiliser in the treatment of personality disorders.
I went to this conference with all these really really clever people in mental health, like you do and this guy started talking about a subject which I think has a mint title, imagine being able to say “oh yes I am a professor thingamibob specialist in metastatistical forecasting
in the NHS mental health system”
What a cool title
So he starts to discuss how he uses mathematical data to forecast funds that would be required to keep services in a given area.
I know I may have lost some of you now but think numbers he was like the curly haired maths chappie, but not as cute and I was as lost as his brother.
Anyway he went on to explain that the system used to predict budget need. I had one of those light bulb moments, Emma you know the ones where I squirm in my seat opening and closing my mouth like a goldfish, hand rising then sat on, literally my mind was doing a hundred miles an hour, it all made sense.
It literally was a eureka moment for me
I should possibly let you know I hate being out of the house and I was a mess then and this was my first outing of this sort.
So he explains it’s a similar system that is used to predict the weather, well that’s going to be so reliable then!
Since learning about my own personality disorder which in all honesty is still like the comfy jeans but now baggy round the waist if I don’t hitch them up ill trip over them so the label itself although helpful but also very much removable that’s why I like to think my label is just like Paddington’s.
That is if I stay inexactly the same place I am as in don’t speak to people don’t leave but if I somehow change either my financial or social circumstances.
I hope to succeed and become of value anyhow I am sat there while this bloke carries on and on about how trustworthy this sort of analysis was at the break.
I politely stood to the side of him until he acknowledged me and asked my burning question, hoping I was not going to embarrass myself, my chatty inner voice asking me what I thought I was going to achieve by questioning this guy’s analysis.
Anyway, so I said so you can predict a person with a personality disorder label how statistically they would cost x and he said well yes that about it so I asked so do you take into account any social, economic, better treatment styles and he said that as life is unpredictable ad therefore everything could not be put into the data.
This got me thinking I wonder how likely it would be that like the word suggests is something that can be put on but also took off in
both time and with the right support a bit like Paddington’s.
So this is one of the reasons for such a label
The Label Of Avoidant Personality Disorder
Another and perhaps more likely reason as humans are designed to function in groups and are less productive when isolated for long periods of time and because our brains are hard wired to constantly compare ourselves to others we also like to not feel alone.
Society also works better with order hence the need for labels we love to categorize in this modern society.
That’s why my dad who’s 85 is probably correct when he says there was none of this in my day mid there were loads of big mental institutions and the workhouse time has moved on life has changed most people have a telly and computer not the fabled wireless.
We are more enlightened in our approach to some very difficult situations.
I like many disliked my label at first, however fingers crossed this may be my key to a worthwhile life.