I am a mother and wife but I have a gambling addiction too that has left me with severe financial difficulties and wanted to share my own experience here on Emma’s blog. I am a member of her Facebook Support Group and I know how supportive the moms are there and I hope they can offer me some words of encouragement here too.
I am a loving mother and wife and I have so much to be thankful for as I’m so lucky to have a loving family around me but I feel so lost and alone because I have a gambling addiction. This addiction has taken a grip of my whole life. I go to sleep thinking about it and wake up thinking about it. I become snappy when I can’t gamble, it makes me edgy and angry.
Gambling has seen me wreck my marriage in aspects, my friendships with people I love and it has made me become dishonest, I will do anything to get my hands on some money to gamble. I’m stuck in this nightmare and need some support.
I’m looking into ways I can get help with the debt I’m in and I am seeking professional help to stop gambling, but like drink or drugs, it has its grip on me.
I accept that I have a gambling addiction
I feel like when I gamble I have some control over my life, I can control something. I get that little buzz that I love but then that buzz is going to cause nothing but stress and anxiety and regrets and hurt. I don’t remember when or how things got so bad, I just know that now I’m out of my depth with it all.
All of that said I’m hopeful that now I see the truth, that I am addicted to gambling that I can fight this rather than sweeping it under the carpet. I’m trying to resolve my debt problems and not gamble altogether. As with any addiction going cold turkey is very difficult and I need tough love from everyone around me to help me get through this.
It feels like the devil’s got a grip on me. I think with any addiction there’s a root cause and I’ve still not found mine. I am ready to finally escape my gambling addiction and I am now able to say I have a gambling addiction without feeling ashamed.
Gambling Addiction Online Help
GamCare – GamCare’s employees are dedicated and experienced professionals, helping problem gamblers as well as their friends and families.
Gamblers Anonymous – GA is a fellowship of men and women who share their experience, strength and hope with each other that they may solve their common problem and help others to do the same.
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