I am so fed up now. I am constantly battling with myself to make myself eat. I hate food. I eat as fast as I can so it doesn’t take up my time and I only eat two meals each day, one of which is soup. Even that amount of food I feel is too much.
I have children’s size portions, the same amount I give to my 5-year-old, but even she eats more than me as she also has breakfast and snacks in between her meals.
My partner gets upset because either I don’t eat or I eat it so quickly that it does not even have a chance to touch the sides of my mouth. I threw my dinner away today before it was starting to go cold, I just could not force myself to eat it.
I get ice-cream and sweet things to try to tempt myself to eat, sometimes it works but I still hate food and I don’t enjoy it. I lie and say I do. I make excuses for not eating.
I don’t want to starve myself but I hate food
I am not deliberately doing this, although at 14 stone I could very much do with getting rid of some of this weight. I asked Emma today what the least amount of calories your body can survive on but I didn’t get the reaction I had hoped for.
Instead of helping me she told me that I needed to go and speak to my GP as I was heading in the direction of an eating disorder and I had to sit down and really think about what I was doing and accept I have a problem.
I know deep down I have a problem but I don’t want to go to the GP.
I know the anorexia statistics as Emma posted about this yesterday. I eat about 900 calories a day, yes I count them but I want to eat less.
I need to lose weight
I hate food, it bores me, I do not get excited about cooking or sitting down to a nice meal. The thought of eating just makes me feel sad.
I wish I could make myself sick so I could bring up what I ate but I can’t,
I hate my body and I hate food.
Can anyone help me?
I just want to be a good mother to my girls but I am fed up and have no energy and feel like giving up.
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