I found your site tonight Emma purely by accident, but the fact that I did is a miracle. I am being raped by my husband and as I read your own blog post on marital rape and I wanted to email you with the hope you could help me.
It begins several years ago when I was diagnosed with cervical cancer.
I was one of the fortunate ones that, by surgery alone, I became cancer free and have remained that way for 10 years.
After that experience, however, I began having issues with sleeping and started on Ambien.
That is when my nightmare began
I thought at first it was strange that my husband would encourage me to take my pill nightly, even hours before bed.
Generally as soon as the kids went to bed.
Several weeks after starting the pills, I would wake up in the morning with a feeling that something had happened during the night but I could not fully recall.
I would wake up sometimes in the morning naked, and when questioning my husband about it he would reply that I got hot in the night and wanted everything off.
As the Ambian sleeping pills started to lose its effectiveness , I soon started realizing what was happening.
I am being raped by my husband
It continued for years and while it has stopped now I remain in a marriage that is so controlling and unpredictable it’s frightening.
I have told no one about this except one very close friend who was the person who actually suggested I read these blogs.
To read that other women have dealt with this is a feeling I can’t even explain.
I have shed more tears than I can imagine, endured everything from this man but have remained silent so my children would never know the evil that I know.
I want out but I’m so scared.
Financially I am set as I have been putting away money for a few years.
Emotionally I’m not sure I can confront him.
I’m afraid of his response, what he will do, how he will destroy me next.
I confronted him with ” forcing himself on me” one time and he laughed stating that I wanted it and I am exaggerating.
I’m lost and confused, I am being raped by my husband and I need your help and would take any advice you can give.
Thank you for reading.
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