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I have been with my boyfriend for nearly 2 years now. Ever since the beginning its been like a proper relationship should be, no secrets and constant contact.
However for the past few months we haven’t really spoke, we live apart, it’s a sort of long distance relationship.
We try to see each other every weekend if possible as he stays at college all week.
But recently he just doesn’t seem interested, he can go for days without talking to me, I couldn’t do that.
I have now started to just leave him to it, as I like to think if he wasn’t busy he would at least have time to talk to me.
If I try talking to him through text or whatever, just to see if he’s alright he is very blunt with his replies.
He won’t start a conversation with me anymore, he keeps telling me he loves me, I used to believe it but now I don’t know if I can.
Most of the time I feel depressed and down, is that why he doesn’t want to be involved?
I try my hardest to not let it affect him or us.
He is the only person I can rely on to make me happy, but he doesn’t seem bothered, not like he used to.
I don’t know what to do.
Has he gone off me?
I sit at home on my own all day, everyday, just missing him, while he’s out with his mates just getting on with his life.
I sound really obsessed towards him, but im not.
I have decided to only talk to him when he talks to me, I don’t want to feel too pushy.
When I try it feels as if I annoy him, so I thought to back off was the best thing to do, nothing has changed.
But when we are together its amazing, its like we’re not just in a relationship but we treat each other as if we are also best friends, soul mates in fact.
I just need to know what to do or not to do.
Am I too pushy?
Does he not love me anymore?
Has his feelings changed?
Does he want to be with someone else but trying not to hurt me?
Has he gone off me?
These thoughts go through my head constantly.
I have told him how I feel and said that he just doesn’t seem interested anymore and that everything else is seems more important to him.
When I am with him he will be checking his phone all the time or at least always have it on him. However when I am not with him and I text him, it will take hours for him to reply.
He finishes college at the normal time 4-4.30pm but I will only get a message at say midnight, saying goodnight, I love you.
I just can’t believe he loves me anymore.
He tells me he misses me but would he be like this if he does?
I am struggling with what to do.
Please help me! Thankyou!
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