I have a gambling addiction that has left me with severe financial difficulties and I wanted to share my own experience here on Emma’s blog.
I am a member of her Facebook Support Group and I know how supportive the mums are there and I hope they can offer me some words of encouragement here too.
I am a loving mother and wife and I have so much to be thankful for as I have a loving family but I feel so lost and alone thanks to my gambling addiction.
This addiction has taken a grip of my whole life. I go to sleep thinking about it and wake up thinking about it.
I become snappy when I can’t gamble.
Gambling has seen me wreck my marriage in aspects, my friendships with people I love and has made me become dishonest to get money to gamble.
I’m stuck in this nightmare.
I’m looking into ways I can get help with the debt I’m in and I am seeking professional help to stop gambling but like drink or drugs it has its grip on me.
I finally accept that I have a gambling addiction
I feel like when I gamble I have some control over my life, I can control something.
I get that little buzz that I love but then that buzz is going to cause nothing but stress and anxiety and regrets and hurt.
I don’t remember when or how things got so bad, I just know that now I’m out of my depth with it all.
All of that said I’m hopeful that now I see the huge problem that I have and rather than sweeping it under the carpet.
I’m trying to resolve my debt problems and not gamble altogether.
As with any addiction going cold turkey is very difficult and I need tough love from everyone around me to help me get through this.
It feels like the devil’s got a grip on me.
I think with any addiction there’s a root cause and I’ve still not found mine.
I am ready to finally escape my gambling addiction.
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