Can someone please help me? I was anally raped by my ex-boyfriend and I don’t know what to do.
I have nobody to turn too or ask for help, I know Emma will do her best to get me someone to talk too or find someone who can help.
My ex and I were together for a while but the relationship turned violent.
He has raped me several times in the past.
The separation was messy; he made it really difficult for me.
There were quite a few times that I woke up feeling sore, my lady area was throbbing.
My back passage was swollen and hurting.
I would confide in my ex that I was in pain and hurting and he would laugh it off and say it was fun drunken sex, that I was like a wild animal, no wonder I was a bit sore.
That didn’t sound like me at all.
But then the odd bruise would appear, mainly on my upper arms and inner thighs.
I left him finally after finding out that he was cheating on me, he had already been given chance after chance and I could take no more.
Then I heard something that turned my stomach.
“He told a friend that he anally raped you” a friend told me
I knew his Facebook password and I was wrong maybe but I logged into his account and read through his inbox messages.
“Yes I raped her, many times; I would just get her pissed” the message read
I felt the tears streaming down my face.
I anally raped her too, she deserved it mate
I felt repulsed.
This man had anally raped me, no wonder my private areas were hurting me all those times.
He had spiked my drinks with more alcohol than I knew and he was taking advantage of me.
And here he was bragging to his friends.
I went to the police and I told them what I had read, but when questioned both my ex and his friend denied ever reading or sending messages.
I was left sad and lonely and feeling let down.
I still feel numb and confused and I have nobody to talk too.
Is there anyone I can talk too who could help me?
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